This blog started out for me to vent my frustrations on my infertility. We got lucky this March and welcomed our daughter Leah Analyse into this world. I will always be an infertile that is something that stays with you forver. Who knows maybe we will get lucky in the future again and add another little one to our family
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
The definition of jealous is
Feeling or showing envy of someone or their achievements and advantages.
Feeling or showing suspicion of someone's unfaithfulness in a relationship.
This is what I am feeling. I had to endure another girl who is pg at work and wasn't trying just got married and blah blah blah. I am happy for her but at the sametime equally jelaous. I can not be fake and say I am so happy and not jealous at all I would be lying to myself. I am jealous plain, pure and simple. Downright JEALOUS. I forgot to mention my best friend who I work with is pg also and I would have been due two weeks before her. So I get to see her go through something I should of been going through at the same time, what joy for me. Did I forget to mention she wasn't trying also? WTF. I have done everything gotten married, have a house, in a great place in my life. It just isn't fair. I hate hearing it will happen when it will. Well when, I feel like I am waiting in line for my number to be called and I do not have the patience. God left out that attribute out when creating me. I want this so bad I could boil over. I hate that at work I have to hear woman say I didn't want this pg, have 3 kids and one on the way and be like 21. UGHHHH!!!! When will my number be called?
Onto other news I start my first round of 50mg clomid tomorrow yay for moving through the cycle!!!!
Well till next time GL and baby dust to all and to all a good night!!!!